Was it rushed, sloppy, animalistic? Or did you go slow, take the time to find out what she likes, how she likes to be taken?
You weren't making love. There was no love in it.
The only love you were lucky enough to have is not there anymore. It died with you and her, when you disregarded us.
Did you even think about me? Did you bother to think about how I would feel?
Go ahead and tell me you were unhappy. Go ahead and tell me she was unhappy. And you two were both there, at the same time, and it just happened. Go ahead and tell me all those things. But I would have dropped everything for you to do whatever it took to make you happy.
Don't say I'm overreacting. Don't say I'm being irrational. You don't get to talk now. You don't get to defend yourself. You lost that right when you betrayed me.
I never said "promise you'll never fall out of love with me."
I never said "promise we'll be together forever."
I'm not stupid. Those things are impossible to predict. You can't promise something like that; those things are beyond anyone's control.
All I said was "promise you'll never cheat on me."
And you promised.
And you broke that promise.
Your selfishness amazes me. You waited until now to tell me, weeks after you ended us, now that I was finally doing better, starting to feel good about life in general. You waited until now and robbed me of that happiness all over again.
I'll live. I'll bounce back. It's what I do.
But I will never love you again. I will never trust you again. I will never look at you the same again. Our friendship, which I was so happy that we had been able to hold onto, it doesn't exist anymore.
I can't trust you anymore. And I can't be friends with someone I can't trust.
You had one night of passion. You undid months of our growing together.
So tell me, was it worth it?
-fin-
I'll kick his ass, if you wish.
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