I want to die underneath a weeping willow tree, but on my bed. The current bed I have would be perfect as its print is an outer space one with space ships and robots. I hope that because this is what I die on, that my afterlife will be like whats depicted on the print. So no sheets on the bed. Weeping willows calm me down and i think would make for a really serene death. I want this weeping willow to be located in the middle of a stranger's giant meadow. I want to die alone. I'm afraid of dying alone but in this particular daydream, I would be alone. Maybe some grazing sheep in the meadow would be fine.

There would be speakers hidden around me, and the sounds coming out of them would be those of Popol Vuh's soundtrack to Aguirre: The Wrath of God. There would be a very comfortable breeze, and it would be a beautiful day. I would wear my "Retired and Loving It" shirt and maybe some boxer briefs.

I know that in this scenario, I would want to bleed out. I am not sure, however, how I would want to accomplish that. A method that seems satisfying at the moment seems to be the one of shooting myself in the chest, but it might be too painful. I could slit my wrists but then I wouldnt be able to hate emo kids anymore. But maybe thats the best way to go...

I wonder who would find my body. I also miss my cat.